You know those ideas and images you get of yourself in your head? Sometimes you tell the world, but sometimes those thoughts and ideas linger in the deepest corners of your mind… you know, those ideas and images.
I’ve always pictured myself writing. I’m not sure what exactly I pictured myself writing, but this is a step towards that image I’ve had of myself. I’ve pictured a lot of things for myself over the years but as situations change, so do those images.
For example, I hit the “I want to be an astronaut” phase late in the game; I was in junior high when that idea came to be. I was invincible and nothing was going to stop me. I ate, slept, and breathed everything I could about space and rockets and the universe beyond. Nothing was going to stop me until I reached high school. All of a sudden my ideas changed (likely as I chose to believe that I couldn’t be good enough in all the sciences which led me to completely neglect to take physics classes).
Before I knew it, I wanted to be a photographer. Nothing was going to stop me this time! I took as many photography classes as possible and LOVED self developing from negatives. I was on top of the world, until I experienced some health problems due to work and it was highly advised that I stopped working with photo processing chemicals. All of a sudden my ideas changed again with this revelation and just as I was about to graduate and as I was supposed to have a plan for my life for university.
With both of these ideas I had for myself, as they unraveled, I allowed my identity to be torn apart. If I couldn’t be these things, who was I? Was I even somebody worth while? Did I have a purpose?
Now, years later (can it really be 10 years since I was standing on the threshold of possibility with my photography dreams in pieces all around me?!), I have gone on to have many ideas and images of myself. As they evolve, I have changed so much.
I am starting to believe that my purpose and identity are not reliant on what I do for a living. I am starting to see my worth beyond what people think I am. I am starting to really discover who I am.
Today, I have a few new images of myself – images I did not have when I stepped out into the world from high school, when I was apparently equipped to handle what would be thrown my way.
Three images I have of myself today: I am a child of God; I am a wife to an extraordinary man who is as imperfect as I am; I am a mother to two amazing girls who make messes and don’t listen as often as I wish; and I am worthy and precious even at my worst. Even during the bad times, these images get me through because they give me life.
Wives, mommies, daughters, women:
You are far more precious than jewels! -Proverbs 31:10
Please note: although this verse is written for women, as children of God, we are all precious in His eyes.
Make sure the images and ideas you hold of yourself are not limiting and that they do not hold you back. Don’t let your ideas an images make you doubt your worth. Let the images and ideas you hold of yourself give you life
Many blessings to you!
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